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Hi :) My name is Alyssa . I've had this site for three whole years, and I'm not going away any time soon. I'm sixteen and a junior in high school. I have the greatest group of friends. They're SO crazy , and when we're together , we always have a good time. Obviously I like to write, but I love photography as well. It's what I want to go to college for. The beach is my favorite place to be. I love both Twilight and Harry Potter. I'm a really happy person, and I try my hardest to not let silly things bring me down. I can honestly say I don't care what people think of me. Even though I live in Massachusetts, where the winters are very cold and snowy, I still wear flip flops all year round. My favorite show is Degrassi, and I probably know more about it than I should , but that's because I've seen every single episode so many times . It never gets old though. I'm passionate about life, and you may ask, why ? Well that's because I'm in love with a boy who loves me back . He's absolutely amazing , and I am going to marry him someday. Call me crazy , tell me you don't believe me, but I will prove you wrong. I can talk for hours , so if there's anything else you want to know about me, just ask , either message me or comment . Maybe while you're doing that you can even subscribe :)
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Name: Alyssa Country: United States State: Massachusetts Gender: Female
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| sorry this is a day late; i had to work yesterday, then my boyfriend came over, then i had a family party to go to. but i am updating today before i do any homework so i know that this gets done! comment and subscribe please! Picture credit = oh__mylovely one. A few months ago my father, who I hadn't seen in years, passed away. I told my friend that I wanted to attend his memorial but it was in Arizona (I live in California). Without pausing she offered to drive me 6 hours bothways. She did and she held my hand the entire time at the memorial. She GMH -GMH two. Love songs don't help you heal. They just calm down the pain, at least for a little while. ©cuteqts three. I want someone who just wants to be near me, to hold my hand, to put my hair back behind my ear when it falls into my face, to wrap me in his arms, to love me the same way I love him. xldn four. You said you'd be my dream; I could have you every night. And if by morning I'd forgotten you, well, no big deal. That'd be alright because you're the reoccuring kind, you are the reoccuring kind. You never really leave my mind. xldn five. If you'd let somebody love you just enough, you'd have everything you need. Songbird; Bernard Fanning six. You don't need to try; I'm happy just the way you are. Don't change yourself, honey; I am happy just the way you are. Hairdo; Little Birdy seven. Music sounds different since you kissed me. I can't wait to see what else... -Postsecret eight. I wish people could achieve what they think would bring them happiness in order for them to realize that's not what happiness really is. -Alanis Morisette nine. I would watch the worst movie in the world with you if you wanted. xx_electrogirl_xx ten. After all the broken hearts, I've finally figured out the problem. I fall in love a little too late. I guard my heart like some kind of castle. I don't let them in when they want; I wait until they're long gone. Then I realize they were the one I wanted all along. cuteandcrazy_qtsx3 eleven. Eventually all the pieces will fall into place. Until then, laugh at the confusion, live for the moment, & just know that everything happens for a reason. cuteandcrazy-qtsx3 twelve. Beauty is skin deep. Ugly is to the bone. cuteandcrazy_qtsx3 thirteen. The harder you try to forget something, the more you think about it unconciously. -Sigmund Freud fourteen. I listen to her heart because it plays my favorite song. -Lil' Wayne fifteen. I'm scared that I'm going to fall in love with you. It's a good thing. It's just hoping that you want to fall in love with me too. cuteandcrazy_qtsx3 sixteen. "What do you really want?" I asked him impatiently. "You, I want you" he replied. I wasn't buying it. I turned to walk away when he stopped me. "I want that part of you that gets excited when you hear the ice cream truck. The part that cries when old people die in movies. The part that cares much more than she wears. The part where she can totally be herself. The part that when I look at her, I only see her. The part where she could never give up a stuffed animal, cause she'll feel bad for it. The part where she wants me, too. That's what I really want." m08iss15a123 seventeen. Love can tear you apart. It can kill you. But if you're lucky, it can put you back together. m08iss15a123 eighteen. Love makes you hold on to things you shouldn't. But who are we to know any better? loveyourlife_quotes nineteen. One smile from you gives me thousands of butterflies. loveyourlife_quotes twenty. I don't wanna waste another moment of my life without you in it. -Garden State twenty-one. I did everything right for someone that does everything wrong. -Elliot Smith twenty-two. Women are always under the impression that men love them more than they really do. -The Painted Veil twenty-three. I like the way I can't keep my focus. I watch you talk, you didn't notice. I hear the words, but all I can think is we should be together. Every time you smile, I smile. And every time you shine, I'll shine for you. Jump Then Fall; Taylor Swift twenty-four. You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you. -Walt Disney twenty-five. And you know what? I realized something last night. It's not that I want you to hold my hand, I just want you to reach for it. throughxtearsxlaughter twenty-six. Perfect would be cuddled up on the couch, watching Disney movies, and you telling me that you'll always be my prince charming. throughxtearsxlaughter twenty-seven. I don't want to fall to the ground. I want to fall in love. throughxtearsxlaughter twenty-eight. You ask me, "What's wrong," and you sound so sincere. But I wonder what you would do if I said that everything that was wrong had to do with you. throughxtearsxlaughter twenty-nine. The first kiss stole the breath from my lips. Why did the last one tear us apart? courtneyl9 thirty. For once, there is almost nothing wrong in my life. Things just have to turn out good sometimes. courtneyl9  wowwowowow. simply beautiful. just beautiful. i found this at oh--mylovely.xanga.com/ and you should DEFINETLY check that site out! there is loads of beautiful photography just like this :) comment with your favorite number!
poll: When was the last time you went on a plane and where were you going? Me: About 2 and a half years ago. I was coming home from Washington D.C. | | |
| sorry this is a bunch of days late! i've been busy with work & homework. i came home from school today cause im sick, but ill update. comment and subscribe please! Picture credit = luciddaydreamss one. Today, my professor talked about the dangers of drinking on Halloween. He asked us to be responsible and not drink and drive. If we aren't fit to drive, we should take a taxi. He said that if we brought in a taxi receipt, he would reimburse us - anytime, not just after Halloween. Men like him GMH. -GMH two. A couple was playing would you rather, and the boy asked the girl, "Would you rather never see me again, or kill yourself?" Instantly she responded "kill myself." Shocked, the boy asked her why. She said, "Well, if I never see you again, it'll hurt. And I'll be alive knowing that you're alive and that I can't have you. At least if I'm dead I don't have to deal with that pain of not being with you." ©made by me; give credit if used three. The winner says, "It may be difficult, but it's possible." The loser says, "It may be possible, but it's too difficult." simplisticly four. It's those moments when you hang around in a room full of friends, when you gasp for breath between each laugh. It's those moments where you get high just breathing in deep, you feel your lungs getting cold. For a second, that split second, you don't care. You don't care about school, about parents, about money, about rules, or broken hearts. Who you care about are those kids sitting next to you. Cause it's all we really need isn't it? Those kids next to you. Yeah, those ones who make you feel invincible, even at your weakest points. simplisticly five. If she loves you, if she really loves you, you'll know it. If you can wake up at her staring at you and it's not even mildly creepy, if you catch her smelling the shoulder of the hooded sweatshirt you lent her for an autumn walk at the beach, and not for B.O., if she makes you a pancake in the shape of a shark, if she calls you drunkenly at four in the morning "to talk", if she laughs at your jokes when they're funny and makes fun of you when they're not. If she keeps her fridge stocked with Guinness tallboys for when you come over, if she tells you how she wishes she were closer to her sister and that her dad makes her sad: She loves you, of course she loves you. -Does She Love You by Pasha Malla six. I have a list of things I like about you. It says everything on it. -wordboner seven. I want to cuddle with you. ...wish you could read this. ©shannasux eight. Kids argued, "I hate you! I won't play with you again!" So they play apart. Later, they play together and share toys. Why? For kids, happiness is more important than pride. Too bad we're all grown up now. cuteqts nine. I hate those endless descriptions of a heroine's physical attributes. It really bothers me how in books it seems like the only two choices are perfection or self-hatred. As if readers will only like a character who's ideal -- or completely shattered. dominique135 ten. Is the goal preserving your life as long as you can? No. The goal is to enjoy your life, to challenge yourself, to sometimes make stupid decisions. dominique135 eleven. I have to ask you a question. It's a good one so think about it. If two people love eachother, but they just can't seem to get it together, when do you get to that point of enough is enough? dominique135 twelve. Yes, I'm drunk, and you're beautiful. & tomorrow morning, I'll be sober, but you'll still be beautiful. dominique135 thirteen. You're so worried about the future that you're neglecting the present. And the present? It's pretty wonderful. dominique135 fourteen. Happiness is being in the arms of someone you love, knowing neither of you want to be anywhere else. -Jawgeena McGibney fifteen. I like to think I played a part in making you the amazing person you have become. sweet_and_sour_quotes sixteen. I adore you, you crazy, gorgeous, wonderful (but also sometimes quite weird - but still very lovely) person. sweet_and_sour_quotes seventeen. Never let anyone fall for you when you know there's someone else in your heart and mind. throughxtearsxlaughter eighteen. I don't wanna say it's breaking my heart. And I don't know where to start. Old friends are falling apart. Straight Lines; Dawn Landes nineteen. I miss the straight, straight lines. The old times, the old times. Remember when we were young? Remember when we were young? Straight Lines; Dawn Landes twenty. The most important thing I realised lately is that painful breakups, unrequited love, shitty jobs and the like help us to build character. And that no matter how bad it fails, we are much better off because of it. canileavenowplease twenty-one. I just met you, and I love you. -Up twenty-two. I am one of those people who needs to learn to let people hug me. I also need to need other people. -Angelina Jolie twenty-three. I do not intend to tip-toe through life only to arrive safely at death. -Christina Aguliera twenty-four. If you greatly desire something, have the guts to stake everything on obtaining it. wishing_for_lovexquotes twenty-five. The girl I want to be is: beautiful, successful, & heartless. wishing_for_lovexquotes twenty-six. Don't chase the feeling, baby girl. Let it come to you. -Lil Wayne twenty-seven. Please don't fuck up. I plan on marrying you someday. wishing_for_lovexquotes twenty-eight. I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, desparingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all, I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing. lifeandlovequotes twenty-nine. If you are reading this, you are beautiful. Smile & let the world show it :) lifeandlovequotes thirty. Sometimes I wonder, "Will God ever forgive us for what we've done to eachother?" Then I look around and realize, God left this place a long time ago. lifeandlovequotes  omg this kitten is so adorable! comment w/ your fave number!
Poll: Do you eat more sweet foods, or more salty foods? Me: definetlyyyy sweet. i love candy & cookies ahah | | |
| great improvement on the comments! lets keep it up and sub too?! sounds like a plan :) Picture credit = canileavenowplease one. I was at a dance at my boyfriends school when we got in a fight and I went to the restroom to cry. An older girl saw me and sat next to me on the floor, in her beautiful gown. She talked to me and made me laugh. Later that night, she was crowned Prom Queen, and I know exactly why. Beautiful people, inside and out, GMH. -GMH two. You love someone, you open yourself up to suffering, that's the sad truth. Maybe they'll break your heart, maybe you'll break their heart and never be able to look at yourself the same way. Those are risks. That's the burden. Like wings, they have weight, we feel that weight on our backs, but they are a burden that lifts us. Burdens which allow us to fly. -Bones three. All I'm really saying is that if Jacob Black kissed me, I wouldn't punch him in the face. sontalia four. Saturday, I saw you holding hands with someone new. Somehow I kept my composure just like everything was cool. But inside, I kept repeating, "Don't let them see you cry." So I casually turned my head as the tears rolled down my face. sontalia five. And if you're not going to be their first choice, fuck them and walk away. Because in the end, you're only going to end up hurting. anq_08 six. What's the sweet excuse now? You removed your clothes for him to 'look' at your heart? x3alreadygone seven. & I feel fine, but I know the same does not apply to you. I know the same does not apply to you. So I guess that I'll curl up and die too. Curl Up and Die; Relient K ^love that song so much eight. If it wasn't for my best friend.. well, where would I be? When I'm hurting, standing on the edge of a cliff, wondering how much it's gonna hurt, if it'll hurt less than now, it sure as hell ain't no boy stopping me from trying. It's no boy that ever cares. x3alreadygone nine. We don't have uncountable memories, and we don't waste our time together, and we don't finish eachother's sentences, but that's okay, cause you make me happy. And that's enough for now. x3alreadygone ten. You're just a let down, another one of my mistakes. I never loved you anyway. I never did & I never will. Let Down; This Providence eleven. Love can make summer fly or make a night seem like a lifetime. lovesworthit twelve. And it's not "clever lonely" like Morrissey, or "interesting lonely" like Radiohead, it's "lonely lonely", like the way it feels when you're being hugged by someone and it somehow makes you sadder. xxquotes_are_amazingxx thirteen. You are beautiful and special like rain and sun at the same time. xxquotes_are_amazingxx fourteen. You always said I had a hard time saying what's on my mind. Well, here it goes: I hate you for what you've done to me. takemebacktosummertime fifteen. Hate is just a word for someone you love, but no longer believe in. takemebacktosummertime sixteen. So just kiss me and let my hair messy itself in your fingers. Let me steady myself in the arms of a man who won't ask me to be what he needs, but lets me exist as I am. psilovequotes seventeen. I'm not shouting for a successful relationship at this point. I'm just looking for something that will prevent me from throwing myself in front of a bus. psilovequotes eighteen. I feel awkward sometimes. You won't talk, but we're not fighting. psilovequotes nineteen. I'm invisible to my own reflection. Don't act like you care. ©euphoria_avenue twenty. I waited for someone I loved. I believed with my whole heart, mind, soul, and body. Body. But he didn't love me back. ilikepomegranates twenty-one. And I find that I am unable to hide all these feelings that flow. In this basement, and in this dim light, you look so beautiful. I'm unsure and unclear with the words I say. I'm happy when you're near, and I wish that forever could stay just like today. You have beautiful, beautiful eyes, so bright and alive & echanting. I want to be with you all of the time. It's hopeless, but I have to try. ilikepomegranates twenty-two. I just want some proof that death isn't the end. -Survivor by Chuck Palahniuk twenty-three. The best feeling in the world is knowing that I make you happy. ilikepomegranates twenty-four. Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life. -Pablo Picasso twenty-five. She tells me that she's broken. I'm doing everything I can to help, but I'm afraid it might not work. ticktackkirsten twenty-six. You loved me because I'm fragile, but I thought I was strong. Gravity; Sara Bareilles twenty-seven. But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't let you go. The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down. Gravity; Sara Bareilles twenty-eight. The hardest thing in life is knowing which bridge to cross and which to burn. ticktackkirsten twenty-nine. My boyfriend has saved me from myself. ©ticktackkirsten thirty. Please walk away and let me go. I can't my darling, I love you so. Nothing Better; The Postal Service  this puzzled me at first. i looked quickly and thought it was the city. its not. its two people kissing, obvi. hah. im dumb. but i like this. cmnt w/ ur fave number!
poll: Name one thing you live for. me: being with my friends/boyfriend. i love them so much<3 | | |
| wooo! i got a new sister site this week! aimee, check her out! and if you'd like to be a sister, just ask me! comment and subscribe please! Picture credit = impitoyable_beaute one. I've always thought I've been ugly. I was grotesque in my own opinion, and I never was truly comfortable in my skin. My friend recently made me take formal pictures with her. Today I got a call from the photographer, begging me to model for him. I have never felt so beautiful. -GMH two. I'm just another mistake you're not going to make. I'm just one less day for you to throw away. And when you tell your friends about how it ended, please be kind cause you know that I tried. starquotesx three. The days will always be brighter because he existed. The nights will always be darker because he's gone. And no matter what anybody says about grief and about time healing all wounds, the truth is: there are certain sorrows that never fade away until the heart stops beating and the last breath is taken. starquotesx four. I have seen the bluest skies, rainbows that would make you cry. I have seen miracles that moved my soul, people that have made me whole. I have seen days that changed my life. I have seen the brightest stars shine like a diamond in the night. I have seen all this & more, but I've never seen a smile more beautiful than yours. starquotesx five. At least I expected the disappointment, right? I mean, I can't say I was surprised you hurt me again. But I can't say it hurt any less either. shewalkedawayquotes six. I guess it always gets me drinking and makes me sad. Forgive me if I look so lonely, it's not that bad. Sometimes it's just the sound of the TV that gets me always wondering why. Sometimes it's just a conversation that makes me cry. scene_inc seven. She changes her daily routine. She holds back tears at school. She doesn't take the same route to class because she knows she'll see you. She's deleted about a hundred songs off of her iPod because each one reminds her of you. She can't even chew certain brands of gum anymore, cause it just makes her think of you. Can't you see that it's impossible for her to forget you? ©made by me; give credit if used eight. I don't know why. I've always been big on happy endings. You see, to me, the most romantic, beautiful love stories ever were the ones where two people meet, fall in love, and then fifty, sixty years later one of them dies and then a few days after that the other one dies because they just can't bear to live without eachother. onlyxlovexremains nine. I've thought for a long time that we were going to end up together, so I didn't really care so much about the when of it. Now, though, the long road is starting to seem like the infinite road. onlyxlovexremains ten. Our love is like a fairytale; we're so unbelievably perfect together. ©whiszper eleven. We live the life of an unfinished novel, still waiting to be written. Depending on how long we live, the longer the chapters. Depending on how interesting we are, the more we appeal to others. We're often judged by our covers. Sometimes people just decide to quit reading us. We're just forgotten until someone finds us. Our characters can develop throughout the novel, but our chapters can never be edited. whiszper twelve. I heard whispers, I ignored the talk. I didn't need to hear it because I didn't want to believe it. I am yours, and you are mine. I don't care what they say. I don't care what they think would be good for me and how you're just not it. I don't care that they think I can do better, because nothing is better than the way I feel when I'm with you. whiszper thirteen. In everything that happens, I find you who gives me comfort. It is you who makes me happy again. ©whiszper fourteen. And we're all broken down; like an engine that is tired and weary, or at least wishes it could say it is. quote_gasm fifteen. And if I'm the lucky one who gets to take your heart away, I will bring you out to dinner with the money that I've saved. I will sing to you every evening all the reasons that I do, that if home is where the heart is, then I'm only home with you. Where The Heart Is; The Benjy Davis Project sixteen. Just hear this, and then I'll go... You gave me more to live for, more than you'll ever know. quote_gasm seventeen. Love me when I least deserve it because that is when I really need it. -Swedish Proverb eighteen. I am always sad, I think. Perhaps this signifies that I am not sad at all, because sadness is something lower than your normal disposition and I am always the same thing. Perhaps I am the only person in the world then who never becomes sad. Perhaps I am lucky. quote_gasm nineteen. Being aware of your crap and actually overcoming your crap are two very different things. -Grey's Anatomy twenty. Hang in there my dear. Things will get better soon. quote_gasm twenty-one. I'd rather have a few days of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special. quote_gasm twenty-two. Though you swear that you are true, I'd still pick my friends over you. -New Found Glory twenty-three. When you lose a part of yourself to somebody you know, it takes a lot to let go. -New Found Glory twenty-four. I give my world to you, blood in my veins to you, you alone have all of me. -Dave Matthews twenty-five. You're a mistake I'd gladly repeat. -Further Seems Forever  beautiful :) i love pictures of city lights. i also love pictures of beaches and the woods. cmnt w/ ur fave number!
poll: have you ever shoplifted? me: no. i've been with friends when they have, but i myself, do not steal anything. | | |
| so my boyfriend is getting sick. and we hung out today and now i feel kinda sick. haha. whatevah. if it's the swine flu, it's the swine flu. im not gonna die. comment and subscribe please! Picture credit = optimism_iskeyxx one. My church recently went on a mission trip and told us a story about a man named Joe. Joe is paralyzed from the waist down due to polio. He crawls 2 1/2 miles on his stomache every Sunday just to go to church. His undying devotion GMH. -GMH two. After all the pain you put me through, I can't stand the sight of you. And you won't drown me in your misery; you'll have to find someone else to be your company. catchingashootingstar_quotes three. I'm going to break down these walls I built around myself, and I wanna fall so in love with you. & no one else could ever mean half as much to me as you do now. -All Time Low four. For now, I'll keep on dreaming, because it's better than believing you're the one. I wish you were. And now I'm gonna stop hoping that you won't disappoint me, cause you always do. You're the guy of my dreams, but I think I'm finally waking up. standstill_lookprettyy five. You look even better than you did before. I'm staring at my feet, wondering if I can do this. It's been a while, but I couldn't forget you. Do It; Nelly Furtado six. When you begin to break, I'll be a phone call away. I swear I'll take the pain away. I won't rest until I know you're okay. tres_chic_xo seven. It was the roar of the crowd that gave me heartache to sing. It was alive when they smiled, and said you won't feel a thing. & as we ran from the cops, we laughed so hard it would sting. tres_chic_xo eight. Let's be hasty & let's be reckless. Just being with you leaves me breathless. wishing_for_lovexquotes nine. I've got this crazy idea: we forget about what everyone else wants for us and decide for ourselves what we want our lives to be. wishing_for_lovexquotes ten. Why do we avoid taking risks, when that only leads us safely to death? -unknown eleven. I love you more than waffles on a Sunday morning. I love you more than a fully charged laptop battery. I love you more than finally being able to sneeze. I love you more than half a cup of caramelized sugar. wishing_for_lovexquotes twelve. I just want you to hug me one more time, because the only thing in this world that scares me is that I'll never feel that safe ever again. wishing_for_lovexquotes thirteen. Just wanted to write and say I love you & I appreciate you & I think you're amazing. itsalwaysbeenyou_quotes fourteen. Never give an excuse that you wouldn't be willing to accept. -Unknown fifteen. I'd like to sink into you and go to sleep for a good, long while. itsalwaysbeenyou_quotes sixteen. Dreams are always crushing when they don't come true. But it's the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. You're always close enough to touch but never quite close enough to hold & it's enough to break your heart. -The Notebook seventeen. Maybe I could have loved you better. Maybe you should have loved me more. Maybe our hearts were just next in line. Maybe everything breaks apart sometime. theyoungandrestless eighteen. You are wrong, fucked, and overrated. I think I'm gonna be sick & it's your fault. This is the end of everything. You are the end of everything. theyoungandrestless nineteen. I know how numbing the pain of hating yourself is. You know, it makes you just want to push everybody away, especially the people who care about you the most. But you can't, not if you plan on ever being happy. theyoungandrestless twenty. "Every morning for 3 or so years I have bought two coffees, one for me and one for the homeless man that was always outside. he dissapeared 6 months ago. Today I went for my coffee and a lovely looking, well put together gentleman stopped me. It was him. He got clean, he got a job, and just got his own place. He said it was finally his turn to buy a coffee for the girl who showed him kindness for all those years. I cried. HisLifeIsGreat!" angelsareabove_x3 i feel like this would be a GMH story. twenty-one. And as we kiss, I remember how it felt to fall in love when I was young. angelsareabove_x3 twenty-two. And all I ask of you are honest words, simple truths, a place to lay my head when I get lost. alixs12 twenty-three. And I stare at the phone; he still hasn't called. And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothing at all. And you flashback to when he said forever and always. Forever and Always; Taylor Swift twenty-four. I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute. Now I'm not so sure. Forever and Always; Taylor Swift twenty-five. Do not enter my personal space. You are not welcome since your presence intereferes with my lifestyle and gives me a headache. optimism_iskeyxx  sickkk! want this. comment with your favorite number!
poll: Would you lie to protect your boyfriend/girlfriend? me: yes, unless it meant lying to the police. then it gets tricky. | | |
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